they are some messages which are not a good reply here to Nao issue and make me on nerves.. but i read
some good stuff here too.
Follow the first reply you got Nao, from Heroix ! give you ears a break immediatly, and go see an hearing doctor ! or even Emergency room (depending where you live and which city, it can be good or bad). try to find someone who know what an hearing traumatism is (i'm not kidding), and visit him immediatly ! don't wait !
the point is : nobody is equal because EACH body and hearing are different. so nobody can tell that "you suffered from this, so no worry, it will go away", or "yeah worry, it will stay", or "you're f***" or anything else. because all the "awful" options are possible.
let's me tell you MY STORY about getting a hearing traumatism which happened 23 years ago !
this is my personnal story, and can't apply to anybody else ! some have lived what i went through, some will not.
but if i can scary enough some of you, so that it will take conscious of the importance of your ears, not only as your job or musician tool, but as well, for your "life"... the normal one, the everyday one ! well, GOOD !
and that my Fightened story would have helped in some kind !!! because i'm tired to see the crazy amount of musician who still continue to have accident and hearing traumatism ! i'm SAD , not only for me ! i know what's happening in cinema theater, or in concert. in became insane !!
my story happened 23 years ago !! not yesterday !
23 years ago, i was starting to be a gig pianist, playing mainly jazz in gig and jazz rock / fusion and pop-rock stuff, doing singer comping, etc.. playing in hotel, bar, etc... the usual pro pianist stuff. at the same time i was studying in conservatory jazz piano, classical notation and harmonies, with some great musicians (like one of sting/chick corea's drummer... or one of michel legrand's session pianist, that's not bad as a jazz teacher !! i coud have much worst as a musician student !
one night i have been invited to do a jam session on a miles davis tune, the sound was too loud.way too loud , already in the audience. everybody was complaining, including me !
once on stage... it hurted me. a LOT. just a jam session. Not a full concert.
when the tune ended, i had absolutly no idea that this nigh, my life, not only my musician life, not only my eventually future musical "career", or whatever i was doing in music or in normal life too, just ENDED.
23 years later, i'm an hearing disabled person. i'm living with non stop tinnitus since 23 years. i had a 10 years healing between 1999 and 2009 because of a very strong medication which is not working anymore today that's how i had the chance to know some of you in the past, Hi Craig S, Robin H., Thomas J, Simon R, Thomas S etc ... if you remember me
, and please, forgive me for some of my way to react badly during these years, my life was, and is still not easy ! because i lost EVERYTHING !
to the one who think that their tinnitus is a nightmare because "i hear a ring"... well, wait before you experience a cluster in both ears from high frequencies to medium and bass, all in tonal and dozen and dozen of frequencies, that you can play all of them on your piano with a so strong white noise in the front , that you can't make a difference between the tinnitus and an another sound around you !
but this is NOTHING ! i'm happy to have my tinnitus, because next to it, the real nightmare is that i got the next morning of the "accident", an oversensitive hearing syndrome called hyperacusis ! 23 years living in a 12m² of room with NO more life because your ears can't accept anymore any sound !
Music ? it was my life ! last time i listened to a john williams record for example ? it was in 2009 !
I didn't listened to the normal sound of a piano since 23 years. Spent thousand of dollars in piano technician to reduce the "noise" of it and still being able to play it few second in a month, or years... sometime life is good, and it can be week , or even days.
i didn't played in 23 years, my piano more than ten minutes per day at best. since 2009, this time didn't went more than 1 minute at a time !
since 23 years my life is a fighting to get my life back. a normal one, not just the musician one, because the traumatism is so big, and the symptoms so high, that's it's not just the musical life which ended, it's the normal one ! the social one, the ... a LIFE !
just being able to go outside in the street, giving a phone call, not having a brain killed by a electric gear which make a high frequency like a bad powersupply, or the backlight of a LCD / LED monitor ... that's just an example...
what about going out to buy food ? or see a doctor or a dentist ? wow...
of course, having no more life and no more music in your life is awful, but it would be not fun, if added to this, there will be no chronical headache everyday, 24 hour per day, since 23 years, with not a single CURE available !
23 years of all kind of diagnostic and therapy ! from the doctor who tell you "your life is over, stupid, why did you do music in your life ?" to the one who tell you that you'll be deaf in few months in 1996 (and i can tell you that in 2018, i'm NOT DEAF YET lol..) or the one who think that it's all in your head, and give you all kind of crazy medication, which will just make your life worst, at a point you'll fill a folder to be known as a disabled person and living of healtcare under poverty level in one of the most rich country in the world, and i'm feeling lucky ! it could be much worst !...
of course, life continue to run around you. so , when we feel bad, go to the doctor, wait 3 hours, in pure hearing pain and that "well you have an another issue you must go in surgery..."
"wow, and the anesthesia ? can it have a consequencies of my ears ?"
"well maybe, but you don't have choice anyway, if not you'll die"...
yeah... and here you are, spending 1 year to recovery from the anesthesia products which killed your ears again...
and then, it's funny, you get a stupid accident, and added to your ears, you have an hand accident, both of them.
but because of your ears, you can't go out anymore, and so , you can do the healing to get them better. and you're there, with your ears useless, and your hands too.
doctors... there is not one single of them which will tell the same as a second one..
from the one who tell you that you suffer from social phobia, to the one that you suffer from noise phobia, to the one who tell you that everything is in your head, to the one who tell (yes there is some !) that you suffer from an hearing traumatism, and it can't do nothing for you because it's "too late"...
i could fill the whole tread with my 23 years story of hearing traumatism
going from a full music life to ... nothing !!
so, hearing traumatism ? well, it's an emergency. a medical one, on DAY ONE. some stuff can be done at the beginning, and some of it can stop it and work !!
but more time spend to do nothing, and still hurting the ears, more additionnal traumatism are added because well, not everybody understand that the first time they got tinnitus, or oversentive hearing symtoms, is a very strong alert !! or a first hearing loss or other symtoms.. an alert to stop what make the symptoms appeared !!
it's not the end, never !
it's taking consciencious of what's happened so your life will not become a "NO" for the next 20 years and more.
i don't want to give advice, because they are common ones when we think about it, and anyway, there is not a single advice from someone experience which can apply to someone else, because we are ALL different.
but some stuff are common. 3 of them when we got an hearing traumatism,
1) it's a medical hearing emergency
2) REST !
3) don't add more traumatism to your ears !
I apologise in advance for the one who don't like my testimony here or if it's too long.
please, to everybody, take care of your ears ! and make some good music !! this is one of the most beautiful gift in this life. don't let it become a nightmare !